yeah new life?

In these days i reliased that i always try to make other people happy (mostly my friends). When i suggagest something they are always disagree, always want to do something easy (just go somewhere near the school or even don't go just go to home and sit!)(our school is on the most popular street of the city but they just want to go to a stupid cafe) they always do opposite things. And today it happened again ( i wanna tell the whole story because i am still very angry but i won't )
why they are self-center and i am not why i always try to make other people happy but i am always sad and why they don't think my feeling and and why i am the only person who wants to do something interesting
and now! i decided !
i want to change my life right? okey ! so from now if i don't wanna do something i won't.
i will do my plans for my friend(twin♥) not with whole group
i will make my rules i don't care other people
i will discover new things

okey i know this is a very depressive starting but it is because i am so angy and i can't express myself enough maybe i can delete this then cause this is my 'start new life' blog (it should be a happy blog)
or maybe i won't delete and i can see the change .

and this is the last day of school . i am happy and sad. sad cause i love my school and friends(yeah these self-centered kids) happy cause i can do something new (i hope so) and improve myself .

don't be depressed ! i am starting a new life
but these is a very bad starting for blog. sorry. i should write when i am happy :(

my friday:
freeday! . prize? . whole!! . mat=3 . still happy . smile . self-center(no more)fridens . twins . school . still summer plans